When I first started my blog I said it would be a place for me to share our journey and I really wanted it to be a place where I could and would always be myself. I would show the good, the bad and the ugly. I would share all the things that have helped and moulded our little family into who and what we are today. I feel like in the last 6 months I have been getting serious anxiety about what I post, who I will disappoint and worrying about what kind of reaction I am going to get and its so bloody hard.
I love knowing that I have got to where I am today by being genuine and authentic and staying true to who I am. However I also find it hard to talk about issues that are seriously important to me because I am scared of the backlash I have received in the past. When was it not okay to have an opinion? When did it start being okay for people to sit behind screens and say nasty and horrible things about one another? Staying true to myself and my beliefs has always and will always be my main priority and it's time for me to let go of that worry and know that as long as my heart is in the right place that everything will be okay. I know my purpose, I know who I am and at the end of the day I know that not everyone is going to like that and thats okay!
I have always had a thick skin and I feel like I can take a bit of slack but on the other hand I am also quite a sensitive person. In a sense what people think about me is important but luckily it has never defined who I am, but the constant negativity can take its toll and lately I feel like it has had a little bit of power over me and its sad that I'm not as open as I once was but I am hoping to get back there.
When I think about the fact my full time job is pretty much putting our life out there to the world and that I am opening not just myself but my family up to the unknown, honestly it's bloody scary! Do I worry about the future? Of course! Who doesn't? But at the end of the day I absolutely LOVE what I do and I am so grateful for the life that we live. I feel like I am always making informed conscious choices about everything that I do and that these decisions are making my family proud and that I stand by them. I make sure that every single thing I post it clearly thought out, any brand we work with is aligned with our morals and beliefs and that it is always with the best intentions.
At the end of the day being a loving, caring Wife and Mother and just being a bloody good person with a kind heart is what matters to me and I know that's exactly what I am. So if you are struggling, feeling pressure or feel like you have a weight of expectations on your shoulders take a step back, write down what is important to you and constantly remind yourself of that! Also remember that people change, you will change, you will grow and sometimes you will outgrow people and that is totally okay.